When I was born, as early as I can remember, I had a very strong sense of spirituality and connection with the Divine. My family was Catholic and when I became apart of the Church I immediately felt a divine calling to become apart of the Church Choir and sing hymns of God. This sense of spirituality was my guiding light in life, but when I reached my teenage years I experienced my "Dark Night of the Soul". When I was around 13 years old I experienced a series of extremely emotionally difficult circumstances. I had several experiences surrounding the Death of my loved ones, mostly my Grandfather, my Uncle, and a dear cousin of mine. Also my Father was never around in my life, having been incarcerated most of his life, and at the same time I had a step-father who was emotionally abusive and cheating on my Mother. Worst of all was that I was experiencing the harshest heart-break of my life; I had fallen in Love with a girl who didn't love me back and called me "fat and ugly". This was the hardest of all my trials and led me down a very dark path of sadness and despair.
Because of this despair I found myself starving myself to the point of malnutrition. I was so malnourished I lost all my weight and became diagnosed as an Anorexic. Also all the stress and depression in my life caused me to start losing my hair only at age 14. I went to counselers and psychiatrists but none of it helped me. The Dark night of my Soul all culminated when I got so sick I contracted double-pneumonia, meaning both of my lungs were infected. I was hospitalized for weeks and was brought almost to the point of Death. I had to stay 3 months out of school, and when I returned, I looked completely different.
From all the weight of this sickness, heart-break, death and depression surrounding my life...it brought me to such a low state of existence that I denied the very existence of God. I no longer believed and threw my Faith away. I thought to myself, "If there truly is a God out there, then why am I suffering so much? I gave you everything God, I sang for you, I was devoted to you, and here I am suffering, sick, alone, and depressed. There must not be a God. There is no meaning in Life. There is only Chaos. And nothing matters anymore...."
I continued to carry this belief all the way through High-School even though I ironically was attending an all-boy Catholic Highschool. I thought all the Religions in the world were BS and that none of it was real. I would be forced to attend Mass with an empty, jaded, and apathetic heart. I truly hated my life.
But then something changed. It was when I was in College and at the age of 17 I experienced what some people call a Spiritual Awakening. It all started with a book I was gifted by a friend called "Journeys out of the Body". This book talked about the existence of an Astral Realm where all Spirits reside. It also talked about how we can visit these realms through a technique called Astral Projection. Something in me sparked that day I started reading that book and I thought to myself "If there exists an Astral world, and if there exists Spirits, Ghosts, and Dimensional Beings....then do Angels exist? And if Angels exist does that mean God exists?"
I then went on a hunt to search for existence of the Divine and all supernatural evidence of life. I became obsessed with trying to Astral Project and visit the Astral world. I found myself learning to meditate and do exercises I learned from this book. Then one day something interesting happened. I didn't actually Astral Project, but rather, I started to have a series of intense vivid dreams where I was visited by interesting spiritual beings. I then found myself waking full of the night-sweats and would look at the clock and it would be 3:33am. This went on for about 3 weeks straight. I would continue to find myself waking up every single night at the same exact time. At first I thought it was just coincidence, until I started to see the number 333 surround me in my every day life.
From this I started to learn about the phenomena of synchronicity and seeing double/triple numbers. I later discovered that these numbers have profound metaphysical implications. These series of experiences then started to re-spark my spirituality and I started to dive a lot deeper into all things spiritual and esoteric. I found myself becoming obsessed with meditation, yoga, energy healing, conspiracies, evidence of the super natural, ancient civilizations, indigenous earth spirituality, and much more.
Also around the same time I started to experience this I was also falling in love with the Art of Dance. I became very immersed in dancing and learning to increase my range of bodily expression. Looking back I feel that the two awakenings of my spirituality and love for dance are interrelated and supported one another.
From this point on I was back in Full Faith that there is an existence of a "God", or Divine Intelligence, Source, Great Spirit, whatever you want to call it. There was something amazing out there, everywhere, and within me that truly Loves me and all beings. The Path of my Re-Awakening had begun and I am continuing to walk down this path every since.
In 2011 at the height of my dance career I found myself leaving everything behind and enrolled myself into a Healing Arts school to develop my spirituality and energetic practices even further.
Fast forwarding to my life now, I am a very empowered individual whom has been graced my a plethora of Ancient Wisdom and Esoteric Empowering Knowledge. Most of all I sincerely feel my connection to the Divine is stronger than ever.
Looking back at my past I am amazed by what I went through and how I survived. I almost died at one point and my state was so low that I could have almost went off the deep end. But in my reflection I now realize that through it all I truly was protected and watched over by my "Gaurdians" and a divine love that has never left my side. It was only me who couldn't see the full picture of everything.
Each and every difficult experience I went through was fundamental to the development of who I am today. I would not take any of my experiences back. I am truly grateful for all the hard times because they made me into the empowered person I am today.
And this my friends, is the short story of my transformation.
Thank you for reading.
And the story has just begun! There is still much more to come!
Stay tuned and continue following my journey, for in reading I assure you that many people have much to gain from my experiences and those yet to come.
Infinite Blessings to All
Adrian Lobo Miramontes